Senioritis, Burnout, and My Promises to Myself

Senioritis has arrived. Teaching high school seniors while I am a senior in college has given me a unique perspective on what my students are going through as they complete their senior year. That being said, the senioritis manifests itself a bit differently in me than it does in my students. For example, I have finished all my work on time; however, I can definitely relate to the stress, excitement, and overall feeling of being burned-out. I share my students’ anxieties about losing the safety-net of being a student as we move to the next stage in our lives. For them, this means college and/or work; for me, it’s my first teaching job. Then there is the issue of actually completing senior year—fighting with the stress of deadlines, worrying about what my final GPA will be, and trying to find time for family and friends in between the KPTP and lesson planning. During the last few weeks, I have often felt like hiding under the covers until life fast-forwards a bit.

 

As I contemplated this idea of ‘senioritis’ I began to wonder—what’s to keep me from becoming burned-out as a teacher, too? If I feel stressed and exhausted as a student-teacher, does that mean I will feel like this as a full-time teacher as well? Is this what I have to look forward to…for my whole career? Panic beginning to set in…

I decided that instead of freaking out, I should remain calm and find a solution. I found an article at http://www.educationworld.com/a_curr/teacher-stress-burnout-preventing.shtml called “Avoiding Teacher Burnout: Five Strategies.” This concise article provides tips for avoiding burnout: 1) leave work at school; 2) share the work load; 3) take a mental health day; 4) arrive at school early; 5) avoid the Sunday blues.

I could summarize the article for you, discussing the points as hypotheticals, but instead, I have decided to write a contract of promises that I will adhere to next school year:

 

1) I promise to leave work at school, even if that means staying at school until 7pm each night. I will designate times during the school day for planning and grading. Whatever is not finished when I leave the building will have to wait until the next day. Home will be my sacred place—a place for peace, relaxation and spending time with family.

2) I promise to ask for help when I need it. I will not let ego prevent me from asking administrators or fellow teachers for assistance or advice. I will use all of the resources available to me.

 

3) I promise to arrive at school at least 45 minutes early every day. This will be my quiet time to double-check my lesson plans for each class, and to mentally prepare myself for the day.

 

4) I promise to plan ahead to avoid the ‘Sunday Blues.’ I will plan each unit in depth well in advance, and have a tentative plan for every lesson in the unit. Every Friday, I will finalize lessons and prepare resources for Monday, so I can keep my weekends stress-free.

5) I promise to focus on the joys of teaching—watching my students grow, collaborating with other life-long learners, and teaching content that I am passionate about—instead of dwelling on the difficult parts.

6) I promise to take it easy on myself when I make a mistake—no teacher is perfect, and I should especially not expect to be perfect my first year.

Healthy Teacher=Happy Teacher

Being a college student can be stressful—trying to fit studying in between classes so you can get to your evening job, staying up until 4am writing a paper, eating ramen noodles and hot pockets every day because you have no time or money for real food. Being a student can really take a toll. Then comes your senior year—the routine is down, the study schedule is perfect, you’ve upgraded from ramen to hot dogs and turkey sandwiches. You have finally figured out how to balance school and life—unless you’re an education major, and you’re student teaching…

Last semester I had my routine down, but student teaching is a completely different ball game. I was unprepared for this change. Teaching all day, staying after school to grade papers and prepare for the next day, finally getting to my homework at 6pm, eating fast food…not ideal. Of course one benefit is that by the time I get to bed I am so exhausted that I sleep better than I have ever slept in my whole life. That said, I feel completely opposite of “balanced.” By Friday each week I am struggling to keep my eyes open. I feel like I am behind all the time, even though as I write this blog entry it is actually nine days before it is due. The point is, I am probably not actually behind, just stressed. Very, very stressed.

Long story short, I need help. How can I succeed at student teaching and stay healthy and happy? After searching for advice online, I found some helpful information at http://teachersupport.info/facts-sheets/work-life-balance-what-it-and-how-do-i-achieve-it. The article is called “Work-Life Balance- What is it and how do I achieve it?” After reading the tips in the article, I realized where my downfalls might lie. The following four tips from the article are the ones I believe will make the biggest difference in my student teaching life, and maybe in yours, too!

1) “Make boundaries—something produced in three hours will be different from something produced in one hour, but is it any better?”

It happens to me all the time. I get “stuck” on a lesson plan or assignment, and instead of taking a break I push through, driving myself insane, staring at the computer screen. Maybe if I set a boundary each day regarding how much time I will allow myself to spend on planning and homework, I could come back at a later time with a fresh perspective, avoiding that MAD SCIENTIST look I get on my face on the fifth hour of lesson planning.

2) “Keep fit. Exercise regularly and make sure you’re eating healthily.”

What? Add something else to my schedule? Are you crazy?! I am sure it is true, though, and I am completely guilty. In past years as a college student I have always exercised on a regular basis. During pre-student teaching, though, I started cutting back. This semester I have been to the gym only once! This is definitely an area I could work on.

3) “Rest and relax. Keep at least one day of the weekend free.”

Until this semester, my rule was ‘no homework on the weekends, and no homework after 6pm.’ I was very successful at keeping up with this rule. This rule doesn’t work for student teaching. I am teaching all day, so homework must be done in the evenings and on the weekends. Maybe this new rule—keep one day of the weekend free—would be a good substitute.

 4) “Take proper breaks…do your best to break for lunch at least, and get out of the classroom.”

I WANT to work constantly while I am at school, but this is a very good point. If I stay in the classroom, there is a pile of student work to be graded, my laptop calling to me to work on lesson plans, and students bringing in make-up work and wanting to talk about their weekends. I don’t want to miss out on the student interaction, but maybe if I just took a quick walk outside during lunch for 10 minutes that would give me the proper time to refresh.

To be the best teacher I can be I need to be the healthiest, happiest human being I can be. Living with constant stress is not okay. I have told myself that what I am sacrificing—not working out, not taking time to relax, working through lunch—is for my students. Not so. What my students need is a healthy, happy teacher who takes care of herself, who can be a role model and an inspiration for students so they might do the same. Now I just need to make some changes so that I can be that person for them, and for myself.

Late Work and Other Obstacles

It is the final semester of my English Education degree! May 16^th I will graduate and have the qualifications to be an actual, real life Language Arts teacher! The past two and a half years have flown by! But before I get too excited, I have to finish this semester: student teaching. Yikes.

I began my student teaching on January 5^th – the first day of the semester at my placement school. I am teaching three classes of College Prep English, and assisting with two other classes. I designed the current College Prep unit alongside my cooperating teacher, and have been teaching or co-teaching almost every day. So far, it has been an absolute blast. My CT and I built a great relationship last semester, so now I feel completely at home, productive, and happy.

The unit that we are currently conducting is a “book group” unit, where each group is reading a different book. I have organized their work load into weekly work, including one graphic organizer per week and reading notes in their notebooks, long-term assignments chosen from a menu of options, and one collaborative project which will serve as the final assessment for the unit. Fridays are group discussion days, with every other day building up to the discussion. So far, the unit has the potential to be very successful.

But of course, it isn’t perfect. My CT and I hit our first snag last Friday—the first group discussion day. Our plan seemed great: students will come to class with completed notes including questions, thoughts, personal connections, and observations regarding their books; students will have finalized their first graphic organizer with all sorts of insightful ideas to share with their groups; students will engage in discussion for the entire 50 minutes, which will seem like way too little time because of all the class time and home time they have spent preparing for this exact discussion. Oh my…I sure learned my lesson. Turns out, giving students 50 minutes to discuss literature from their own notes on a Friday is not realistic. As I walked around to listen to, and participate in, group discussions, I noticed that students were often talking about something unrelated to their book, or they were not talking at all. This was the first problem. Second problem: many of the graphic organizers were not finished. Students were hustling to complete their work to turn in at the end of class instead of participating in discussion. A few groups even spent discussion time copying the work of those students who were finished. Not a good start to the unit.

My CT and I had a long discussion on Friday. We came up with a game plan to address the problems. For example, we are planning to provide a “focus piece” to each group on Fridays to help guide their discussion, such as an article or poem that connects to the novels. We have also informed the students that they will be given a participation grade, and that points from this grade will be taken off any time they have their cell phones out or are not prepared for discussion.

 The final item that is still baffling my CT and I is late work. Many students simply did not complete their graphic organizers, and are turning them in as they finish them. Just today I was handed four late graphic organizers. We decided on a policy of 10% removed per day late, but is this really the best policy? Will this discourage students from completing their work if they are late? Isn’t it most important that students are doing the work and learning, no matter when the work occurs? This question has been bugging me for days.

 To get some insight about the late work issue, I read an article called “4 Tips to Address Late, Missing Homework.” The article can be found at http://www.teachhub.com/teacher-missing-homework-tips. According to the author, Stephanie Wrobleski, there is no “one size fits all” solution to this question, but Ms. Wrobleski does offer some helpful hints regarding how to handle late work.

One of Wrobleski’s suggestions is to “gather reinforcements” for the students who are consistently late. This could mean guidance counselors and other school staff, but it could also mean parents. Wrobleski reminds us that we cannot assume that parents know that their children are behind. I think this is especially true for the grade level I am teaching—seniors in high school. I wonder, though, what I should do if a parent doesn’t seem to care…or if the student is 18 and on their own. I have several students that have been living on their own since the beginning of this school year. In some of these cases, parents are out of the picture.

Another suggestion from the article is to “establish a plan” with the students on an individual basis. Put together a schedule of when they will turn in their assignments, and create individualized rewards and consequences. This seems great in theory, however, I have one student who has only come to class a handful of times this semester. I have planned make-up times with her about 5 times now, and she has never followed through. When is it time to pull the plug? How many chances are they given?

Wrobleski’s final suggestion is simply to “be realistic,” which is probably the most helpful suggestion of all. She reminds us that not every student will pass, even if we do our absolute best as teachers. I don’t like to think about this, because I believe that every student has the ability to succeed in my classroom, but she has a point. I think that, with this in mind, my late policy might still be my best option—10% per day. This way, students have the ability to make up work, but if they wait too long to do the work, it is out of my control. Now, I just have to stick with my plan and stay on top of my grading, and everything should work out for the best! (Here’s hoping…)

 Although we had a few obstacles last Friday, I think it was a good learning experience. It really forced me to re-examine my plans and adapt my lessons to help my students get the most out of the unit. I am feeling extremely optimistic about this unit, and this semester! I am ready to work!

How to Prepare for a Presentation Like a PRO

How to Prepare for a Presentation like a PR0

Don’t. Panic.

 You have a whole month before your presentation. That is like…so much time. Presentation topic is open-ended, because your teacher rocks, so you can research practically anything in the world. You live in the world, so you can just talk about something you know. This should be a piece. Of. Cake. Promise yourself you will begin work on your presentation tonight. Wait, but you are going to the movies tonight. Maybe tomorrow, then…if there isn’t a Dr. Who marathon on. You will be prepared this time. This presentation will be your bitch, and you its master.

 Two weeks before your presentation. While doing the dishes, remember you haven’t started your research…not even a little bit. You haven’t even picked a topic. Begin brainstorming topics…use your environment as inspiration. Brillo pad…dish soap…paper towels…the history of paper towels…the history of sinks…the history of indoor plumbing…toilets…flushing…what happens when it makes that sound and you have to jiggle the thingy—crap. Did you remember to flush a few minutes ago? Flush…flusssshhhhhh…that’s a weird word…fa-lush…water, flushed cheeks, cold weather…maybe you could write about cold weather…snow…snow men…melting…water…sinks…dishes…brillo pads…UGH! WHY didn’t that DAMN TEACHER give you more specifics for picking your TOPIC?! Anything in the WORLD? The world is like…so HUGE…

 Give up for now. You are good under pressure…you’ll think of something.

 One week before presentation. Time to panic.  Pace around your house for 10 minutes. Oo! Hunger Games Catching Fire on Netflix! Grab the popcorn!

 Three days before your presentation. Choose a topic you really like. Something you are passionate about. Not enough information on the internet. Choose a different topic. The pagan origins of Christian holidays. Nice and controversial. Look at Wikipedia for 3 minutes. Phew…you should eat some ice cream and go to bed, searching the internet is hard work. Nice job you.

 ‘Twas the night before due date…and all through your mind...you’re getting an F…’cause your so behind…

Stay up until 4am preparing. Drink a pot of coffee. Make a PowerPoint with distracting animations. Maybe they won’t notice your research is sloppy. Rehearse everything you are going to say 20 times. Throw up twice. Drink more coffee and eat some Cheetos. Get 3 hours of sleep. Slink into class with your laptop in hand wearing a dirty pair of jeans with a Cheetos stain on the back pocket.

 Forget everything you planned to say. Excuse yourself to the bathroom and cry for 30 seconds. WHY ME?!!

 Walk to the front of the classroom. Set up your laptop. Look at the class—staring at you. They probably all have A’s in this class. They are probably really smart…and judgmental. They won’t get it. They think you are stupid. You ARE stupid. A big flushing idiot.

Begin your presentation. “Good morning fellow…uumm…” 

Forget how to speak. Forget how to th--  the thing with the head and the voices in the head—

 Ignore the bile rising up in your throat. Swallow. Press your hands onto the podium to keep them from shaking.

Accept that you will fail this presentation no matter what. You could just walk out of the classroom. Give up. Come back next semester. It will be different. You won’t procrastinate…you will start working a month ahead of time, get a good night sleep, be confident, prepared…

“Ms. Gale…are you ready to go?”

No. This is not happening.

One month before presentation. “Sorry sweetie…I can’t go to the movies tonight, I need to do my homework.”

Building Better Teachers to Build Better Students

During my pre-student teaching this semester, one thing has been on my mind fairly consistently: do these students actually WANT to learn?

 My students come to class on a regular basis. They do their work. They participate in activities. They behave appropriately (most of the time). When I pose a question to them, they usually come up with a satisfactory answer. However, when I ask them to ASK questions, to engage in discussion about things that THEY want to talk about, it seems they have no idea where to start. Is this because they actually don’t care about learning? Are they only here to earn a grade?

 I am sure you have heard that old saying “curiosity killed the cat.” How about, “children should be seen and not heard.” Follow directions. Complete the assignment so you can get a good grade and graduate. I suppose this attitude could work for high school if your only goal is to graduate, but what happens after? Like, in real life? Do you just stop learning? Do you just go to college doing the exact same thing—going through the motions to get the grade? Learning is about being curious, asking questions, getting rowdy, solving real problems, and taking a stand. Learning is exciting! What is more thrilling than the process of asking a question and finding the answer? Or even better than that, asking a question that has NO answer? Being left to speculate! To invent! To theorize! How can I show my students how amazing learning can be?

 Perhaps this “get the job done” attitude has been taught to students when they were in lower grades. Maybe it is caused by parents/guardians/teachers/mentors putting too much emphasis on grades, and not enough emphasis on learning. I can’t change what has already happened, but I can try to change how my students feel about education now.

 I heard an NPR special on All Things Considered called “Building a Better Teacher: Dissecting America’s Education Culture.” You can listen to the podcast at http://www.npr.org/2014/08/09/338831269/building-a-better-teacher-dissecting-americas-education-culture. In the podcast, they discuss the differences in Japan’s educational system and education in the United States. According to Elizabeth Green, the U.S. is great at coming up with new and improved teaching strategies, but not so great at implementing them. Green says that when she visited Japanese schools she was surprised at how noisy the classrooms were. She expected to find a quiet, traditional environment, but instead she found that the lessons were very interactive. Another difference is the amount of information students are asked to focus on in a single lesson. Green uses a math class as an example: in the US, a single math class may go through 15-30 problems, whereas in Japan, they do one problem a day.

 Green says that in Japan, teaching is considered a public science. Teachers, administrators, and social scientists attend real classrooms regularly to watch, dissect, and analyze lessons. They consistently use this data to improve education, and emphasize training teachers in new techniques. From what I can tell, education in Japan is all about collaboration, questioning, and building upon prior information to continually create a better system to educate our youth.

 You may be asking yourself what this “Building a Better Teacher” stuff has to do with my original question: how to get students to want to learn.

 This is the answer: improving students’ attitudes toward learning begins with building better teachers.

 The stuff that we want our students to do on a regular basis (questioning, collaboration, intentional and authentic learning) are the things that we, educators, should be doing all the time as well. We should always be learning; not just about how to be a better teacher, but about everything! We should be learning things at school and outside of business hours to bring back to the classroom-- learn from our students; learn from our colleagues; learn from watching movies; learn from listening to the radio; learn from reading books; learn from watching Netflix; learn from traveling; learn from random internet queries; learn from talking to people at a coffee shop.

 If we can show our students how thrilling it can be to acquire knowledge in real life, and inspire them to do the same…just imagine a classroom full of questioning, curious kids…aching, craving, begging for answers to their deepest, most desperate questions. Right now it seems like a fantasy, but I believe it is possible. We have to change the mindset of our students, and I believe this starts by changing the mindset of teachers.

My very first KATE conference!

On October 30^th and 31^st, I attended my first KATE conference (with the Kansas Association for Teachers of English). I had a wonderful time, not only attending the keynote and breakout presentations, but also socializing and networking with current English teachers (and my fantastic classmates). I am definitely feeling inspired; I hope I get a job in Kansas next year so I can become and KATE member and attend again!

 

The most inspiring keynote session was Friday afternoon—Taylor Mali. Oh. My. He inspires me to be a great teacher AND a great writer. He included poems both about teaching and his personal life, which was refreshing after talking only about teaching for two days. My favorite poem that he performed was about his ex-wife not trusting him with her PIN number—it was like the entire room stopped breathing at once. He turns seemingly every day, normal things into profound metaphors for life, love, and learning. I hope to be a tenth as inspirational for my students as he is for me.

 

There was one breakout session that stood out to me as being the most helpful and innovative. It was called “Icebreakers, Teambuilding, & Brainbreaks: Using Collaborative play to foster positive learning.” The presenter, Ms. Pameticky, took us through a series of game demonstrations that we could use with our middle and high school students. The games can be used for team-building and collaboration. My favorite gave was one that included throwing a ball back and forth in a circle, following a particular pattern. Mostly, it was just really fun, but I think there may also be a way to incorporate content. Perhaps students could answer quiz questions or practice vocab words as they are playing. I recently read an article (http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/answer-sheet/wp/2014/10/24/teacher-spends-two-days-as-a-student-and-is-shocked-at-what-she-learned/) about a former teacher who shadowed a student for two days. She was amazed at how tired she felt after sitting and being quiet all day. These collaborative games would be a great way to give my students a break from sitting.

 

I really enjoyed the networking opportunities at the KATE conference. I met many teachers from all over Kansas! It was particularly nice to chat with WSU graduates who are now teaching—a little glimpse into my possible future! My cooperating teacher is very involved in the conference, and she introduced me to some KATE officers and board members that I probably wouldn’t have met on my own. Mostly, I just enjoyed hearing their stories about teaching, but I also hope that I left a good impression. Who knows! I may be working with some of them next year! (Crossing my fingers…)

 

I would have liked to see more interactive breakout sessions. Like the high school students in the article, sitting through hours of sessions per day was exhausting. I really appreciated the session about games, so I could move around. Perhaps more modeling during sessions would be helpful. I would have also loved to hear more about the texts being used in Kansas classrooms, particularly if anyone has been successful incorporating young adult literature into their curriculum.

 

Overall, I was extremely pleased with my experience at the KATE conference, and I look forward to (hopefully) attending again next year!  

Genre Reflection #1

You just don’t feel like it?

 

Let me tell you something.

This building with the gym and the lockers and the dim lighting in the hallways
And the fluorescent, blinding classroom bulbs
And the adult-sized humans with the child-like faces,
Squinting and yawning with their backpacks hanging low,
Tugging hunched shoulders into an embarrassing upright position
This place with the square rooms, decorated with calendars, and clichés,
And kitty cats who hang on, and never give up
This place is called school
And you’re here to learn, and work, and grow.
Pick up your pencil and write. Something. Anything.  
An opinion. A fact. A memory. A dream.
And when you do
School will be a different scene.
You will see doors open before your eyes
Action rising and racing and falling
Windows to peek through to other worlds
People to brace you during a brain storm
You’ll see the little girl before you
Not so little anymore
Who used to put her pencil away before a line was written
And stare at pages with words, unrecognizable and meaningless
Until a teacher taught her the secret
Of unwrapping a word like a gift
And lifting it off the page into her own curious, whirling brain

Now, I can teach you all about the secret world
Of knowledge and imagination
Of discovery and joy
Of open doors and limitless options

But first you have to pick up your pencil

And try.

In my imagination

I said all of those things
But I was a student teacher,
and it was my first day,
so I just said…
O.K.